For today's blog, I thought of sharing my story on how my first boy happened, but not the full details, of course! Lol!
I was
just 22 years old when I got pregnant on my first son. I cannot
completely say whether having him was an accident nor bearing him was
done on purpose. Making love, as how I see it, is not an accident and
could never be one, rather a passionate choice you and your other
half lovingly made. Another thing is, I and my boyfriend were just on
a 4-month relationship that time. I guess the decision of having a
child was a fifty-fifty one I and my boyfriend did or maybe much
higher on his part as he was the one who really wanted us to have a
baby and kept on encouraging me. He gave me lots of reasons why we
should have a baby and start a family. There I was being absolutely
in love with him soon enough gave in. It was November of 2010 when my
monthly guest suddenly unpaid me a visit. First time since we got
together. I was terribly nervous. Who wouldn't be? My parents didn't
know I have a boyfriend and worse, I'm pregnant, which I wasn't so
sure yet. But my gut feeling was telling me I was. Oh my! I was into
a big mess.
Look
at how my gut feeling turned into a naughty boy!
Okay,
going back, I and my boyfriend waited for a couple of weeks before
doing the pregnancy test. I could still clearly remember such day
while both of us were waiting desperately for the result. It was like
the longest minute in our lives. Yes, he was with me inside the
bathroom, my ever-supportive boyfriend. The long wait came and there
right in front of us were two red lines. It was a positive,
obviously. He smiled, a sweet, nervous smile. And I smiled back.
Within a month or two, we were already able to look for and visit an
OB and had the ultrasound. You know the feeling of being pregnant the
first time and hearing your baby's heartbeat. Oh! I could nearly cry.
We were like the happiest couple in the entire universe for months.
Until 5 months later, I was caught. I rarely went home since I was so
afraid my parents would notice my tummy getting bigger. Anyway, I
wouldn't want to go back to that day I felt extremely embarrassed and
made my parents very disappointed.
Here's
the controversial baby now. The baby who washed away disappointments
and turned them into pure joy.
Our
family never had a baby cause I and my siblings have close age gaps.
So it was my adorable fellow who started brightening up our gloomy
and quiet house. I can't just explain the happiness a baby can give
to the family. He gave sweet smiles and huge laughter to our faces
and he's the mere reason we get to have more family bonding.
The first time families on both sides were complete when my baby turned two. By the way, his name is Procie Jezaiah "PJ".
For the next post, it will be for my second son.
