Being on a hiatus for I guess two months blanked my mind on what to post on this blog. I've been very
busy with household chores and child-rearing ever since the kids'
nanny and our household help left us. The latter without any notice.
So it gave me no choice but to work around the house while
sacrificing the little joys of my heart. One of them was blogging.
And the other one is work. But few days ago, an answered prayer
arrived in our house and there were two of them. Oh! How God could be
so right on time. And that means I'm back on track and soon enough
I'll be working. Am I really ready to work after five long months of
me and the kids alone? The past five months have been a
roller-coaster-mommy-stage for me. Throwback 2011, three months after
giving birth to my eldest son, I left him on the nanny's care cause I
gotta return to my job. It was terribly painful but what pained me
more was that the nanny knew better what my child wanted and what
every single act he did meant. Worse, he was sick almost every month.
I just don't want to repeat the same mistakes again. That's why when
I gave birth to my second son I finally decided to be a stay at home
working mom. And yes, it did work! But to tell you it could be one of
the most difficult jobs a person can have. Anyway, I'll talk about
that soon. Getting back, being with my two awesome tykes for the past
five months, made me knew them deeper. I love how I get to take care
of them every single second of the day. A job I so simply enjoy
doing. So much more if I get paid. Haha! I don't mind the eye bags,
the sleepless nights (since I gave birth to Bien the nights have always been sleepless and to think he's more than a year older now)
and the empty pockets both left and right. I may have stopped earning
but the time I get to spend with them while seeing them grow right in
front of my eyes is absolutely priceless. Just a thought, if only all
the working moms can quit their jobs and spend their time on their
kids, they will all do so. I did. I took a risk. Though I know it
won't last. I don't know how many more weeks are left for me to spend
all my time to my two precious gifts. This is making me sad already.
I'd better stop now.
Even so, I won't end this post without
an answer to my own question: Am I really ready to work? No, but I
have to. I love my kids so much that only God knows how much I am
willing to sacrifice everything for them. And because I wasn't born
rich I gotta work my ass off so I can start saving for their future
and give them the life they more than deserve. So much so, if I want
to send them to the best school there is in this city, then I better
start earning now.
I just realized that I didn't have a
topic until I started blabbing. It's past midnight yet today is the
day for us mothers (let our husband and kids spoil us..hahaha!) so before I doze off here's a shout out for all of
us mothers and that includes even the single daddies: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
